ive been through in a lil bit hard time rn.

i live with host parents in edmonds

they used to be nice

now, they make me do their dishes,

throwing my shoes away,

they even turn their internet off so i must go to my friend’s house till late to do my online class

and you know what happen when im going home late.

there’s no bus at all, i dont have the cab number, and i dont even have any cents on my wallet.

today i go home by walking from the transit center to home. it took me hours in the middle of the night and it was really cold. my host mom wont pick her phone. i call my mom in jakarta and tell her how fucked up i am. she got really panic. then i started crying because i saw this bunch of gangsta grabbing this korean girl who stand in the front of me. i seriously got really scared.

and she told me if both of my grandparents got to send to hospital. im worrying about them now like so bad :( i wanna come back home. i dont even like my school here. the people arent nice. i only got 1 good friend (hi rachael) here. when im hungry because no one cook food in the house, i always go to her house to help her eating all her stuff.

i just wish things gonna get better.